Doing What's Right

Jan 30, 200914 min read

Deviation Actions

JesseLax

Published: Jan 30, 2009

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‹‹A Long Hello››

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I've got a lot to say right now, so please, if you're interested... go get yourself a drink and squiggle in all comfy in your chair. It's going to be a minute.

If you're just here for the important facts, skip to the next module.

I'm going to address some of the things you've all been hearing lately about my fiancé, KariAnnLax, but only as it pertains to me, our relationship, and my personal opinions on it.
I shall not in any way divulge private information specifically or otherwise, nor will I be begging, urging, or in any way insinuating to you to start a cause-driven lobby against the governing $taff body of deviantART. Conspiracy theorists may leave now, as may flamers and all the other ignorant fucks who are looking to gain account / comment / pageview alacrity by borrowing attention from a serious and meaningful situation.

Also, this isn't written to add to "dArama". This is real life, folks. Living tangible and large outside of the internet. And while it is "just" the internet, in the case of us, the internet has an affect that spreads through our corporeal life. This means there are actual emotions and significant sets of people relative to us whose lives are changed by this in many ways. It's not funny, it isn't a joke, and it isn't offered here for your dispute. This is my life, these are my thoughts and emotions, and I'm putting them here for those people out there that care about that fact, and thereby me.

If you're ready, let's get to it.

Based on all that has been going on as of late, perhaps it's true that some of you might have suspected I would probably discontinue volunteering my time to deviantART. Genuinely, when KariAnnLax was dismissed from her employment with the company, I think it's safe to say I had a lot running through my mind. I wasn't quite sure what to do. An important part of our life is/was deviantART and its inherent community... right from the very the beginning for both of us. Quite literally this is true, being that we met right here on the site and have since both been very visible deviants.

So it came as quite a blow to she and I personally, and that same blow inevitably trickled it's way down to our family. In part because employment effects anyone who intimately surrounds the person employed, and in part because Rox and I are both very zealous and passionate supporters of dA. You just can't have a conversation with either one of us (together or alone) without hearing us talk about this community and how awesome it is. So it is now that our belief systems have been maimed by the very thing that we each cherished so deeply. And excuse me if I take a bitter moment to say: a maimed belief system is a little more than just feelings being hurt.

Anyway, It's left me to have to deeply think, re-evaluate, process, and finally decide.

‹‹Decisions²››

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I very much enjoy my time here and love having the opportunity to do the few things I've done for the benefit of all of us. It's a rich and entertaining experience that I feel very blessed to be able to partake in. Even so, the way things are now I can no longer find myself looking zealously at deviantART. It's not the fault of any of you, nor the many moments I've had to connect with this site and the galleries within it. Neither is it because of any loss of passion for the genre that I love so much. No my friends, wallpapers for me will always be an epic portion of my drive as a Design Artist and person.

While at this precise moment I feel uncomfortable expressing what exact minutia has changed in my view of deviantART with verbal exactness, I am inclined to say that it has (in general) everything to do with feeling completely let-down by the bright "ideal" I once had of deviantART... which successively has everything to do with KariAnnLax's current situation. My spirits are truly dampened, my trust in the important people I've met is skewed in a way far removed from where it was only days ago. Ultimately it's up to me to weigh these feelings and thoughts against my support of all of you, my support of this site, and my support of my family.

What's logical is that I keep my status as a GM and remain your emissary to the Administration to help keep us all tied together.
What's right, true, and just, is that I stand at my fiancé's side and show my support in every way possible.

After some time tossing those two things around, it finally occurred to me very plainly that by supporting KariAnnLax, I am</u> supporting you. This is true because she was an outstanding deviant before she wore the very same hat I'm wearing as a volunteer. It was her excellence there as not only a GM, but as person, which led her to being offered a position as Assistant Director of Community Relations—and it was that commendable work that brought her to where her deepest passion truly rested: Manager of Film Development... even for as short the allowed stay was.
Now, you guys out there, you're all awesome in your own right. Each one of you... but when one of us deviants can stand up amongst the rest and not only crescendo, but touch the highest peaks—isn't it that very deviant who we all have helped to get there, simply by existing around them?
Yes, that was rhetorical. Of course it is. We couldn't have deviants who excel so precisely without all of us being here together in our immense diversity. We all are active at different levels and it's this very fundamental system that lets people just like KariAnnLax ascend to places we know they belong.

So I choose to support her. And I'm showing it by hanging up my hat, politely declining my time, and letting someone else take over helping archanN in the amazing role of your Wallpaper Gallery Moderator.

Do I still believe in the community? I give a resounding Yes.

However, using the word "community" I mean specifically all of you fucking brilliantly talented people out there with whom I've shared so many conversations, thoughts, ideas, laughter, and lives. So deeply am I tied to you now that I intend for you to see even more of me than you ever have. So stay tuned. I may be offering up my hat to be half-broken into a tick, but I'm not going anywhere.
Of course all of you are more than welcome to still note me with general art/wallpaper questions, but anything that's deviantART specific, bug-related, or Community Relations related will all have to go to archanN or moonbeam13

In closing, a very good friend of mine who has also recently relinquished their position as a GM offered me some very wise words. The statement relates not just to me, Rox, and this whole situation, but also to all of you out there who are looking to make deviantART a better place.

I'd like to end this journal with those words, in th hopes of keeping your spirits high, and to let you into my current mind-frame:

"...there's nothing we do in C.R. we cant do without the ^ except post DD's and move the miscats. But as far as community interaction, we don't need those."

Amen.

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